N3w bEGinnINg

my dear~~^^
tel u somethg...
u were my avthg once...
i take u as my 1st priority,gave up quite a lots of thgs bcoz u...
but to u,
i was like a shadow...
following u all the time,do watever u do,b at somewhr nearby always...
give up all the thgs for u...
n finally i lost myself...
i've forgotten tat i can shout out loud if i feel pain,i can cry it out when im sad...
i've forgotten forcing myself to smile is not the only response i can give...
i've forgotten i have my right,my own life,i dun need to endure n accept all the thgs u done...

now i've make up my mind...
i dun1 to b ur shadow anymore...
n i wont take u as my 1st priority from now on...
but tis doesnt mean v come to the end...
i guess v can juz take it as a new beginning or a turning point...
wat will happen in the future im looking forward to tat...
v'll be better or worse,let the time show us...

thanks to mr flute,miss huggie,
n miss little sunshine...
if i duno their story,
i thk i wont make up my mind...
i'll juz continue
to let myself b a shadow,
or make the same thg happen...

LoV3 tRiaNGle

wanna share a story v u all...
a true story tat happened in my class...
its abt love...

thr is a guy in my class,mr flute n he hav a lovely girl fren,miss little sunshine...
they started their relation abt oct 2009 i guess...
i can always c them hav lunch n dinner together...(they from diff class)
i can always c miss little sunshine wait him in front of our class...
it was so sweet...
but somethg hav changed recently...
when i bac to sch n started lessons,i suddenly realized tat...
mr flute is so close to another girl in my class,miss huggie...
at 1st i tot mr flute was broke up v his sunshine...
but i was wrong...
he din broke up v his little sunshine,but he still get himself very close to miss huggie...
according to our class 8-est ppl...
miss huggie seem to really fall for him...
she told tat mr 8, u know wats the prob tat i facing,tats the greatest pain i ever had...v the tears rolling in her eyes...
n mr 8 oso told me tat mr flute said he'll never break up v his little sunshine...
i thk miss huggie know abt miss little sunshine...
tats y she suffered...
but i dun thk miss little sunshine know abt tis all...
i bet mr flute wont dare to tell...
felt sorry for miss little sunshine...
i wonder how can mr flute turn his back to miss huggie so fast...
as soon as the bell rang,the smile on his face is belong to miss little sunshine...
he held hand v miss little sunshine n go to hav meal together...
whereas miss huggie hav to go restaurant all alone...
i feel sad for miss huggie...pity her for being left out...
feel sorry for miss little sunshine for her innocence...
feel angry bcoz mr flute treat tis 2 girls like tis...
cant understand y mr flute wanna mess up v miss huggie since he'll never break up v his sunshine?dun he care abt how miss little sunshine feel once she find out all of this?dun he care abt miss huggie's feeling?hav he ever thk of wats the outcome?
miss huggie oso...how can she mess up v mr flute since she knew abt miss little sunshine?

i guess i have no right to judge them...im juz a outsider...
they r the 1 who make thgs go like tis...
they should b ready to accept the consequence someday..

tis story looked so familiar...
tis make me thk of a lot of thgs...
looking at them make me thk of others thg...
i guess i should make up my mind...
put off all the thgs wont help to solve the prob in anywhr...

hAPpY GAtH3rInG

today is my class's gathering...
today bbq in sch...
start abt 5++ end at 9++pm...
kinda bored btw this period of time...
took a long long time to prepare all thgs n light the charcoal...
guess how v light tat...
u all surely cant imagine....
u know wat??my classmate blow it in order to let the fire grow...
GOSH~~~
he juz blow to those charcoal...like blowing a balloon...
the ashes n smoke all around us due the "strong wind"....
ntg special juz a normal bbq~~
after v clean up all the thgs...v sit thr n chit chat~~
good weather n nice atmosphere...
kinda romantic coz v were chat in dark...
the sch turn the lights off at 9++pm...
v were sitting in the dark n can c some stars twinkling upon the sky...
chat til 10++pm coz need go bac to our hostel b4 11pm...
then only v leave...
i enjoyed the moment v share our thg,gossips...
tat make me feel v r so close to each other...
i love my class,my classmates...
v came from diff country but v met at here...
v spent lot of time together studying,gathering....
v laughed together...
tis feeling,tis memory i'll treasure it...
i love u guys....muackzz~~

v'll b apart someday...
i juz hope v can stil can meet...
no matter how many years later~~
hope v can hav a gathering
n v can laugh n enjoy
like today...

tAiWAn AgAIn

bac to msia for abt 1month...
the conclusion is i dun feel like wanna come bac here...
althru i like the weather here now n i like my classmate so much...
but i stil love whr i from...
mayb juz bcoz i ady used thr...
mayb im juz mama's girl...
wanna sit at thr n wait my mama prepare all the thg i need for me...
im such a spoilt child...
anywhr...a special thanks for the 1 i love...
thanks for acc me all the time...
he almost spent most of his time v me...he b by my side all the time(mostly)...
talk v me,play v me,did lot of thgs together v me..
n the most touching thg he ever did was...
i saw his tears...he cried...bcoz i leaving soon...
it was really long time from the last time i saw his tears...
but now tears dropped bcoz of me...
WH i know u gonna miss so so so much...now u all alone again jor ler...miss the time v spent together??
hahaha...i miss u ler...no 1 'bark' v me now...sienzz...
i can giv u a great smile in return but other thgs i dun thk so...
i duno wat can i do...
wat can i do for av1 who treat me nice...
not only him...but av1...especially my family,my relatives n my frens...

THANKS A LOT~~

lessons started...
i hope tp go bac as soon as possible...

mEm0Ri3sSss

Suddenly thk of a lot of thgs…
I missed the old days v used to hav together…
The year 2008…
It’s a happy year….
It full of happy memories…
The year which all of us were still 17…still studying at TA whr Our happy memories began at…
But it will nvr end…althru v were no longer TA students…no longer 17 year old…
The days v used to hav together still can clearly seen in my memories…
Tat time v were so close to each other…
V know wat each other doing…mostly…
Unlike now…
V can hardly tel wats happening….

I like wenn’s big smile…she is my big bright sun who can cheer me up…

I like kaixin who always do somethg crazy n stupid in front of us…n can bian mian within few second….

I like zhenying….for avthg she hav done for me…she is caring n warm…

I like jiajia who looked sweet n quiet,but really sweet n not as quite as she looked like…

I like yokeyee always fetch me here n thr…n always look calm to me…

I like huikee who can say somethg ridiculous nonsense v a serious expression…

I like joanne who sometime serious sometime do stupid thgs…

Kisses n hugs doesn’t enuf to show how much I love u all n appreciate wat u all had done n gave me…thanks for being my friends…especially jiajia its my honor to be ur friend…(I believe u all know y I said so…^^)

U all juz like rainbow to me…7 of u represented 7 diff colours…colour up my life n make my 2oo7 bcome a colourful n joyful year…

U all r my rainbow…appear after rain…colour up the blue sky…

N make the blue sky no longer lonely…

I wish I can bac the past…n stay thr…

But…I know tats is impossible…

So a simple word from me...

~all the best to u,my buddies..~

to other…

forgive me I din mention u here…

I din mention u at here doesn’t mean u r ntg to me,

juz I cant list all of ur name here…

tats too hard to me…

For those who nvr mentioned…

deep in ur heart u know I care abt u…

aTt3NtI0n!!!
i admit tat im lazy...
since now is my holidays...
i wil post something when i feel i wanna post...
so...
juz wait n c wat n when i'll post...
muackz...
thanks for that~~

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