mY 2oo9

the last post for this year...
a lot thg happen within this year...
its a meaningful year to me....
now look bac wat hav happened...

Jan
。ntg special...juz wasted time at home eat n zz like a pig
Fed
。CNY,then started to get closer n closer to some1
。went to melaka
Mac
。bac from melaka
。zy they all bac from ns
。get spm result
。get my driving license
。went to ns...met all my ns ji mui
Apr
。in camp
。ching ming...go bac sao mu...sadly found out somethg
May
。free from ns...
。went to shoot gun
。yin n ann's bday
。change my hair style
。started my form 6 at smart
。started our relation
Jun
。my bday
Jul
。jiajia bac
。kaixin's bday
。late to sch n climb the wall go in
。jiajia's bday
。our wen xin de dinner
。bbq at yy's house
Aug
。bought my laptop
。joanne's bday+baking
。my 1st driving out
Sep
。left msia n went to taiwan n NTNU
。bought my camera
。medical check up
Oct
。my granny passed away
。園游會
Nov
。期中考
。zy fell down
Dec
。having some misunderstanding
。ban ju,went to han lu
。some1 hid somethg from me
。met bac my primary sch's classmate
thg happened recently______________________________________
on mon,28/11/09...i received 2 xmas gifts...

yes...is xmas gift...on mon...

xmas present received on xmas...^^
is wan wan...

1st xmas present received on mon...
candy n little bag from muji...

2nd xmas present received on mon...
ferrero collection...
he bought 4 me juz bcoz i said i want it...
erm...felt sorry 4 him...

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n special thanks to ann...
she asked her friends made me the page on ffs...
although it look very fake...
anywhr thanks a lot yazz...

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today 31/12/09 going to ~
went 4 dinner v classmate then go pasar malam n tokong...
damn tired ar...
but having lot of fun...
however...
the best thg not tat...
~01/01/10
the best thg was v all went to c fireworks which launch from 101 at my sch...
although v were far from 101,cant c clearly n dun hav any singer or artist here...
but still excited...
v can c lot fireworks...here n thr...
its beautiful...
love it....
its a waste coz i din took any photo...
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really a lots of thg happened...
all in my mind...
its part of my memory...
i hav wasted my 1 year...
juz like this...

thank you 4 avthg
u all had done 4 me...
u all were irreplaceable...
hope v can b better
more n more..
all the best to u guys...

aTt3Nt1On!!!

y33wan having exam soon...
y33wan's exam is around the corner...
so...
y33wan wont online recently...
not until i free from exam...
be patient...

無聊

自星期三（還是星期四？不確定…）開始，臺灣迎來了第一波寒流...
從那天開始就越來越冷…
冷死了…受不了…
星期五已經降至9度了…（我的學校在較高的地方，所以會比較冷…）
今天就更冷了…只有7度耶!!!
天啊!!!
7度…怎么辦啊？
人家從小到大都生長在熱到不行的馬來西亞，什么時候那么冷過？？
慘死了…
一碰到水手就僵了，冷到雙手好紅好痛...
外套又不夠厚...一直發抖...
受不了了...今天終于甘愿出門去買羽絨了...
穿了一件不怎么溫暖的外套，走了快三十分鐘的路，到巴士站去搭車...
今天臺北人好多可能是快要圣誕節了，大家都出來買禮物吧...
下午三點多到公館，吃過午餐后就開始逛...
逛到五點多就很累了...
真的不了解為什么有人那么愛逛街...
難道他們不會累嗎？
因為實在是太累了，沒有心情繼續再逛下去...
就隨便買了一件...
花了NT1898買了一件不怎么好看，我也不怎么喜歡，但卻保證溫暖的羽絨...
沒辦法...我沒有心情要繼續逛下去了...
大概八點多就去學校去了...
當然還是搭公車...沒辦法我很窮...沒錢了...
就在我們上車沒多就我們就感覺到一陣搖晃...
erm...維持了好一陣子，晃了數次...
為什么會晃呢？
就因為馀震嘛...花蓮發生了6.8級的地震,導致臺北有余震...
這是我們回來后同學告訴我們的...
很遲鈍，對吧？
沒辦法...
人笨...我基本上很少感覺到有地震，通常是別人跟我說有地震，我才知道...
除非是很強的地震，否則我是不會知道的...
尤其是我在睡覺的時候，更不知道了...
所以保佑我，在我睡覺的時候沒有地震，不然我就慘了...

很沒有意義的一篇...
不知道我為什么會寫這么一篇...
好奇怪...

SJK(C) KONG MIN clASs 6S(2003)

wat is tis?
hehehe...^^
an old photo...took at long long time ago...
when i was 12 years old..
hahahaha...long enuf izit??
tis is a the ony happy thg happened to me recently...
i found tis photo at facebook...
coz my name tagged on it...
can c me up thr??
i guess cant...coz i oso cant recognise myself...
i was so so so ugly tat time...
haiz...no eyes c...(better dun look at tat...nightmare!!)
but thanks to tis photo...
i can meet bac many my primary sch de classmate...
i was so happy abt tat...
they r going to hav a gathering duno when n duno whr...
hahaha...
anywhr juz hope i can make it...
i hope i can meet v them BADLY...
coz v dun met each others for so many years...

gathering of 6S(2003)
wait for me!!!

cARinG Fr13ndSs 。Li3Sss

thanks 4 ur comment...my dears...

to my dear wenn...from the day i found out tat thr is somethg btw tat ppl n me...
i do realized tat...
the situation is juz like u tat time...
keep lie to myself,
keep find a lot of ridiculous reason 4 u...
in order to comfort myself,to cheat myself...
keep telling myself thg wasn't happened as the way i thk...is me juz simply thk of nonsense...
once n once again...
even until now...im still finding the excuse to forgive tat ppl...
really duno wats wrong v me...
i guess i really out of my mind...

so i understand how u felt like last time...

now ony i knew...
finally understand
n i believe u'll know its not easy to make a good decision...

even i know wat is good to me...

but i juz cant do tat...cant b tat xiao sha..
sorry 4 cant b understanding tat time...
i thk tis is the punishment 4 tat...

to my dear yin...pls dun wry la...

tis is our prob...v can handle it...

so pls juz stay n watch la...no matter how...

u'r stil my lovely fren...

dear kaixin...
erm...thg is easy when u juz say it out...
hard to do de ler...


tis time really too over dy...
not only hiding somethg from me,leaving without telling,but u lies to me...
u can juz tel me tat u'r going to shanghai v yy...
i wont n i cant stop u...
but u wat u did juz keep silence...
dun tel me tat u r juz 4 got to tel me...
i dun accept tis excuse...
i did asked u once...
within a week b4 u went to shanghai...
but wat u answer was??
tell me wat u told me tat time??
n u rmb to tell zy abt tat,then y din u told me??

anywhr...wat hav happened was happened...
no point to talk more abt tat...
it wont change the fact...
i sam tam...
up to u..
juz go ahead n do watever u like...
since u dun like to tell me the thg abt u..
then u need not to do tis anymore...
im too tired to chase after u...

the word believe...
is tat mean i hav to be
live within ur lies?

EMO!!!

tmr i going to hav chemistry test...
n now i haven do my revision yet...
i knew i shud concentrate on my study...
i know wat is good to me...
n i shud do wat is good to me...
but wat m i doing now??
im wasting my time...
to write tis post...
actually,i dun wanna write tis out,coz i dun1 let u all know wat i thking...
but i really thk i need to let it out...
if not i cant concentrate on anythg...

once again u were hid somethg from me...
tis time more worse...
leaving without telling...
u told me u'r going to xue ji camp...
but then whr r u now??
n who u b v now??
WTF!!!
how many times u want to do tis??
hiding somehtg from me,do watever u like n cheat me,make fool of me...
hav u ever thk of me??
how i feel?
do u care abt me??
how many times i can forgive u??
wat if i do the same thg??
leaving without telling...
wat if i directly go bac to taiwan without telling u?
how will u feel?n wat would u do??

countless tears tat i dropped since the day v started...
how much u expect i can take?
the yeewan now was no longer the yeewan tat v came to know...
the cheerful yeewan was changed...destroyed by u...bit by bit..day by day...
n no longer exist...
the yeewan now is EMO...
she lost her cheerful...
althrough she is still laughing...
but do she really happy??

u are drug...
u do nothing but harm me...
numb my sense of happiness...
drive me to the world of tears...
how can u treat me so bad?
how long u want to torture me
in the name of love?

GaTh3RinG oF cLaSs 6 oF d1VisiON 3

ytd is our class's gathering...
v went to dinner together...
almost whole class go,juz few ppl absent...
v go 韓爐 go thr 4 steamboat n 鐵板燒...
thr hav a lot thg to eat...
is 吃到飽...
but to me is not worth lor..
coz i cant eat much...haiz...
but is quite nice la...
av1 were crazy...damn high ar...

our class's da he zhao...

my neighbour,ying zhi...
she from hongkong,23 years old...

tis is my classmate...
they r crazy n annoy(sometimes)...

but i stil like them...
im glad to b in this class...
muackzz....

good to meet u guys...
u all r the treasure,
i found at here...
a place which called qiaoda...
our memories start at here...

tHaNkzZZ~~ mY D3aR...

謝謝妳總是陪我分享 不能跟情人說的話
我反反覆覆妳也從不笑我 老是罵他 卻又離不開他
謝謝妳總是替我收藏 不想跟情人說的話
我胡思亂想 妳只握著我手 讓我釋放 然後慢慢寬廣

the word thanks is not enuf to show how much i glad to hav u v me n how much i thanks god tat to let u b by my side...
i know avthg u did is juz care abt me...
i really do appreciate tat...
but i dun1 to burden u...
u hav ur own prob to care of...i cant always waste ur time...
i know how much the time is important to u in order to fulfill ur dream...
im not trying to hide somethg from u...
juz belif me i can handle tis...
if u really want to know,i wont mind to tel u...
i would like to share av single thg v u in my life...
pls dun wry...
im strong enuf to take care of tis...
althru the decision i made is not the perfect 1...
but its the road i choose...

muackzz...
sorry to make u wry a bt me...
i'll b fine...
juz giv me some time...

fAlLinG d0Wn

24/11/09
today i got chemistry experiment to do...
our group did quite well...
today is quite cold..
our experiment is to find out the freezing point n the melting of a chemical...

duno wat its name in english...

the surrounding temperature is so low...

until the a layer of ice is formed at the beaker...

after experiment i go lunch v zy....
avthg is juz fine...not until i received a call from zy...
she tell me in fon tat she hav felt down n ask me go thr...
i tot she sot dy...
felt down jor then stand up la...cal me 4 wat...
but i oso put down all my stuff n ran to her....
nvr thk of i stil can run...coz my legs r damn pain due to tat jungle treking ytd...
when i reach thr...i saw her sitting on the floor n half of her face was covered by blood...
my brain gone blank when i saw her...
the ony though in my mind is to bring her to our sch clinic...
after some simple 1st aid,v go hospital(juz zy n i)...

u know wat??zy is so diff from other...
i was damn worried abt her wound but she not...
wat she worried abt is juz whether it wil leave a scar n sked her mom worry abt her...
feel like wanna slap her when i get to know she willing to keep bleeding rather than hav scar...
dun u know how much i worry abt u??gik sam...

yazz...once again she broke her chin...
the wound is quite deep...

after sewed...it was swollen n blue black...

i skipped my class acc her go hospital...stay until 4++pm...
reached sch oso almost 4.3opm...
i missed my classes...nvm la...she is far more important than tat...
after bought some breads n milk 4 her...i go bac to my room n rest a while...
then i bac to zy's room n i saw her crying like a baby....
i like damn zadao~~y she dun1 call me??
after tat ony i knew...she vomit while she chatting v her mom...
is weird lor...
y dun she cal me??am i so unreliable??
suan liao...
acc her until almost 10pm...she dun look better...
so v decided to to hospital again...
tis time she go腦段層掃描...
pro ler...
luckily ntg...juz mayb is 腦震蕩...

kinda lazy dy...dun feel like wanna continue jor..
so sorry yazz...tis almost all abt her falling down la..
if u want more information pls ask her by urself...

b kful ar...
especially u in a hurry to buy food...
^^

sp3c1AL Ge0GraPhY l3SsoN

today is juz not my day~~
today during geography lesson,our class go to jungle treking....
i guess i can consider it as jungle treking...
gosh!!
damn tired ar...
i though is juz go to hav a walk outside...
who know??
the trip is so so so damn long, n the raod is damn slanting....
+ the road is damn slippery...
hard to walk ar...
it take almost 2 hours to finish tat trip...
well..i din enjoyed it...
NOT AT ALL!!!!
i almost die at thr ar...
i really thk i dun as healthy as i thk im....
u guess wat??
my face was pale,totally white ar...
i looked damn ugly at the moment...
feel like wanna die jor...
barely able to breath...n headache when v were on the way bac...
climbing tat stupid slanting mountain.....
but wat can i do??
cry like a baby or sit at thr cacophonous??
is tat help??
nope..not at all~~
so juz keep on my journey lor~~
haiz~~~
i stil rmb the feeling...the feeling tat i can hardly breath...
it is horrible...
i swear to myself...i wil not promise any1 to go 4 jungle treking or climbing anymore....
not even once again!!!
no more next time!!!
curse them all who ask me go 4 climb mountain~~
tmr still need to run 800m...pj test~~
haiz~~~

really exhausted...

l0n3Ly DaY

today is a lonely day to me...
y?
bcoz zy is not around...
zy went for movie v her classmate...
without her i din ate anythg 4 whole day(except 4 cookies）...
y i din took my meal?
bcoz i too miss her?
hahaha...
mayb it is 1 of the reason...
other reason is no1 ask me to do so...
hahaha~~sound funny izit?
but it is truth...im too count on her...
she is very important to me...
at here no1 really care abt me n no 1 really i'll care abt...except 4 her...
i'll juz walk away when some1 say he or she is moody,but i'll stop 4 u,stay v u...
even if im not around.not b v u...believe me im wry abt u....
tats y im happy when i received ur msg...
if u say yes at the moment,i'll abandon all my thg,juz b thr 4 u...
juz want u to know tat u r important to me...

u juz like a big apple tree...
u can feed me v apples,protect me under the shadow,played v me...
i hav took so much from u...
but wat can i giv u?
juz stay some whr near n watch avthg u do...
tis is the ony thg i can do 4 u...

u always on my mind...

even v dun hav a lot of photos ,
but ur smile,ur face,n all ur expression
all in my heart n my mind
n i'll nvr forget...
i hav such a great fren...

M1sSinG 。cHAnGiNg

web cam v wenn on mon night...
my tears drop on the second i saw wenn through web cam...
it feel like v were so close to each...
like v bac to the time v used to hav together...
tat moment ony i realized how much i miss u all...
no matter how much fun or bitterness i hav here...
deep in my heart i stil hope i can bac to whr i from...
tat the ony place whr i belongs...
the only place whr i called it n take it as home...

but thr is somethg i afraid of...
cHaNGesSss...
i duno how long i'll stil take thr as my home...
i duno how long i'll stil hav the same feeling towards u all...
coz zhenying told me tat i hav changed...n i thk the same the way as her...
i hav changed in someways...
juz i din realized...

changes happened in us...
av single 1 of us...
it juz like evaporation...
its a slow process...
it take time,
bit by bit...
tats y v din realized when changes happening...
or mayb juz v pretend duno
n dun wanna know it...

tRIp t0 sH1 liN n z0O

14-11-09 sat
since nvm went to士林夜市...then v decided to hav a walk at 士林 thr...
go out from sch at 1++pm...walk to 林口 thr to take bus go taipei station....
when v reached 林口 bus station...
i realised i left my wallet at my room...
OMG!!!
u know how much time v used to reach thr??u know how far is tat??
haiz...
no choice....who ask me so careless....
then v turn bac to sch to take my wallet...
pity jia xin n zhen ying 4 tat...acc me walk such 冤枉路...

v reached 士林 thr at abt 5pm...then hav our dinner thr...juz some snack actually...
then start shopping...not really in the mood...but oso bought a lot thgs..
a lot ppl thr...barely able to breath + raining...
ruin my mood...
then v bac from士林 at abt 9pm...
our門禁is on 11pm....n zhen ying start 點名at 1050pm...n v need at one n the half hour to go bac to sch....is in hurry...
reached bus station thr oso 9.40pm....
take bus bac to 林口 need abt 1++hour...then v need to walk bac to sch...
walk oso need at least 15min....
v damn sked ler....
finally v decided to take taxi...
take taxi can save lot of time but is exp compare to bus lor...
v b in our hostel at abt 10.30pm...tis time v surely stil on the way,if v take bus...haiz....
want b late or willing to pay more??late will 記小過，見教官，罰打掃...
so want pay more or b late??

spent quite a lot today...bought shirts,shoes,n hat....
hehehe~~
haven finish visiting thr....nex time go again....
kinda sked to shopping jor...bought too much...but no choice...weather force me to buy shirt...i dun1 ague at here...
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15-11-09 sun
slept at 1somethg...but woke at 7++am...
coz v wanna go Zo0 today....
hehehe~~
tired...i looked awful coz not really got enuf zz....
haiz....
date jor jia xin,zhen ying n ah kang(my adik..^^) at 8am....
but due to some1 late jor....v go out at 8.30++am...
reached z0o 11++am almost noon dy....
r u wondering is zoo tat far?need use such a long time to reach thr??
actually not....
coz v spent some time at pasar pagi thr...tats y v reach zoo thr at such time....

the enterence fee is juz 30NTD...quite cheap izit??
well...the zoo is quite large....v get to c a lot animals...n din saw a lot too...
no chioce the zoo is too large n it juz like a maze...v like juz turn around n walked at the same place....
but v get to c 團團n圓圓...tat 2 big fat panda...
n koala bears too~~hehe..they looked cute...

tis is 新光特展館...(the place whr 貓熊 stay...they call panda貓熊here....)

signboard to show the time v can go in n visit 貓熊...

but duno y...mayb is the weather or wat...most of the animals r sleeping....
v can juz c it lay at thr....not move around...kinda disappointed..
make me feel sleepy too~~

the zoo closed at 5pm...so v hav to go bac around tis time...
haven walk sai whole zoo ler...but no choice...
the railway is full of ppl...
almost all is bac from zoo...
directly go bac to qiao da after dinner...
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tis three days is happy but tired....(from fri to sun)
din really get enuf rest...but is worth...i thk....
coz iget to c so many thg n get to spent so much time v my frens...
hehehe~~

i like to spent time v u...
i would like to accompany u always...
juz tel me if u want to...
i'll b thr 4 u...

exaM iS oV3r~~

finally...my exam come to the end....
i free from tat...
but...i din really do well in the exam....
coz i din really well-prepared 4 it....
suan liao...dun wanna thk abt it....
at least...i passed my math...
although i juz ngam ngam pass...but is pass oso lor..

then i go 4 movie....went v my classmate...
v go 板橋 thr...abt 30 or 45min from my sch...
quite far izit??no choice wor...
they can ony book thr de ticket....
then ma suan liao lor....
honestly....tat movie is awesome....
i love it...alot alot....
is so damn nice...really is worth to go watch...
i glad i got go v them...
coz they din ask me go at 1st...but 1 of them quit then ony i go...
fortunately i go...
i damn happy v tat....

really happy v tat...
wat a great movie...
i hope i can watch v wenn...
coz i can imagine wat response
she will hav...
really miss u guys a lot...

EXAM!!!

exam on mon....
now??haven finish study yet...
not 1 subject is well-prepared...
can die liao la...
haiz....
bless me...
no mood to study....
i envy u all hav finish ur exam...

im sick...
having a disease
which named home sick...
i miss u all badly...
miss the time v used to spent together...
i need u to b here v me...
but...
u ain't here...

園游會

園游會 ....erm...juz like hari kantin...

v all got our got time table to work...
n i was asked to b the cashier need to stay there 4 whole day...
haiz...tired...
our class sell干冰汽水(juz put CO2 in it)，煉乳汽水(put susu n CO2 in it,it to too sweet to me)，夾餅(juz like sandwish)n鹵肉飯....
im the cashier 4 鹵肉飯...
while i serving,suddenly got a girl came to me v roses....
well...is normal...coz thr r some classes selling flowers...n a lot couples here....
then she talk to me...cant clearly rmb wat she said...
but she is telling those roses is 4 me....
my 1st response is tat girl make fool of me....
after recomfrom v her 4 several times,then ony i accept those flowers....
av1 staring at me....
haiz...
10 roses n 2 ferrero rocher...
is quite exp i guess...pity him 4 wasting money 4 tat....
is too much 4 me...i dun deserve tis...
the 1 who should give i nvr accept any....haiz…

hehehe....then at the noon time...
my 鹵肉飯is almost finish dy...then i hav ntg to do jor...
so i decided to go walk around...got a lot of thg thr...n took some photos....
i even go to males hostel....coz it open to visit today...hehhee....

tis 1 is 女二舍...
my hostel is next to tis...

tis is 中庭湖 ...

is quite fun today...but i exhausted...
til today oso...keep fishing in my class...can hardly concentrate on anything...
haiz...pity...
the day is getting colder n colder...
my clothes cant really warn me up....freezing here...

is fun here...
but i miss my home now...
avthg is good n fine here...
but here not my home...
i wanna go back...
bac to where i belongs...

我眼中的她

我认识了一个女生…好久了…今天就来谈谈她…

她是一个双子座的女生。

我个人认为她是一个典型的双子…为什么呢？

因为她就是一个这样的人…

双子座是一个矛盾的星座，有双重性格，任性，孩子气…她也是这样…

时而开朗，时而阴沉，简单来说就是情绪化…要真的说这女生的缺点哦…真的是超级多的…

她懒到不行，连多走几步路都懒；她很敷衍，做事随便，没有责任感，而且还笨死了。爱哭，也爱笑（疯了）；自以为是，总是认为自己可以，自己很好，很强，其实她什么也不是…她只是一个一无是处的爱哭鬼…但她从不承认她是爱哭的（原先我也不这么认为，最近对她改观了…），她爱面子，口是心非，总是心不在焉，经常发呆，骄纵蛮横，做事慢吞吞…

还有一箩筐的缺点，多到算不清的缺点…

但整体来说，她人并不坏，只是缺点多…

她有挺丰富的想象了，爱天马行空，（双子座的特性），她虽然有些呱噪，但也有较静的一面…对她而言，个人的隐私与私人空间是必要的…她虽爱凑热闹，但也有想一个人静静，放松的私人空间…

她难过时就想要一个人静静的思考一下（虽然不会想出什么好的解决方法），有时候她并不需要安慰，让她静一静或是静静的陪着她就是好了，有时候她要的是私人空间，一个人静静的呆着。这就是她想要的。她认为因为有些事不要说开会比较好。

她不是不想说，只是她的沉默有她的理由（也许是连她自己也搞不清楚），请不要追问，这会让她很为难…如果她想说，她自然会说，因为她藏不住秘密…但有时候要问一下她会比较好，因为她不知道要怎么开口…很麻烦。很矛盾吧？没办法，她就是难相处…

她生长于一个含蓄的家庭，请原谅她不擅长表达出她的情感…但她是知道别人对她的好，只是没有说出来…她不出声并不代表她不知道，也许是她真的不知道，又或许她是在给你一个让你自白的机会…

她是一个归属感很强的人，只要让她在你的身上找到她所要的归属感，不管她到哪儿去，她一定会回来，只要那份感觉不变，她就会回来...她现在缺乏安全感，离家在外的她，找不到归属…她目前呆在一个她不熟悉的国度，没有熟悉的家人，朋友…她得从新开始习惯这里的一切…还好她的适应力还不赖，已经可以习惯这里。只是她的身体适不适应就还不知道了…

她讨厌变化，因为她认为变化是不好的。因为发生在她身上的变化，都是不好的。在她不在家的期间内发生了很多变化，很大的变化，因此她决心讨厌变化，同时也害怕变化…还有她是善忘的，请告诉她你们是爱她的，也一定要提醒她，她是爱你们的…

她麻烦，她挑剔，她爱哭，她爱笑，她爱闹，她吵，她安静，她斯文，她莽撞，她任性，她无理取闹，她温柔贴心，她粗枝大叶，她纤细懦弱，她情绪化，她的一切一切…全都是她。好的，不好的，她就是她…她不完美，但那又如何呢？我就是爱她…我会慢慢的认识她，接受她，包容她，改变她，因为连自己都不爱自己的话，那么还会有谁会接纳她呢？

这就是我眼中的怡韵了，在你们眼中她又是什么模样呢？

还未完全的写完，

毕竟很难详细的描写自己。

原本是要周末post的，

但是基于网路的问题才拖到现在...

这样的我还是我，

我不完美，

但这就是我...

tEsT,TesT,t3St

long time din update my blog dy....
coz i having a lot of tests now...
almost having test av single days....
haiz....
not juz u all gonna exam...
me too...
so....let's jia you together....
all the best to us....
muackzzz....

p/s:i hav idea wat to write next...hehehe...
coming soon...

the 7th day

1st 0ct 2009....tis is the day i got the new....
now ady 8th oct....time fly....
it passed so fast....
now ady 1 week....n i oso can accept it....i guess...
stil the same thg.....she'll always b in my heart...i'll nvr forget her....
although i din say nothing,but i hope u know u meant a lot to me.....
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a hug can say i mis u.
it can say ur special,
or bst of all,
i luv u.
it can soothe a hurt,
or calm a fear,
or cheer us up
so heres a hug for u..
Take care..

a simple msg from my dearest friend on 5 oct....
long time no c,miss her badly....
tis msg is simple but meaningful....
it was so right...a hug can mean a lot...
n i need tat....

i need a hug to tel me not to emo....

i need a hug to stop my tears...
i need a hug to warm me in such a cold weather....tel me to b strong,encourage me n cheer me up by a smile....
i need some1 to hug me tight....
but i duno who will b the 1 who hold me tight...
duno ask a hug from who....

now im ok dy...i ady kan kai....
i really can accept it....
so no need worry abt me...
muackzzz....
thank you a lot...my friends....
thanks n sorry 4 avthgs....

although is hard to do so,
but i can did it...
i can accept the fact...
she wont bac to me...
n i cant c her anymore...
u not far from me...
coz u in my heart...

你能了解嗎？

你覺得我看起來冷靜，
我想我真的成功的讓自己看起來很不錯吧？！
我每天跟你們開玩笑，
大大的笑容，笑得瞇起來的眼，
看起來真的和往常無異吧？
我很棒，對不對？
很厲害吧？

其實你有沒有發現到，那樣的笑容太過于燦爛？
彎彎的眼睛，其實沒有滿滿愉悅；
最近的玩笑的笑點太低，也太多......
我看起來精神很好，可是你不會覺得這樣的我很奇怪嗎？
平常的我有那精神奕奕嗎？

你真的知道我要什么嗎？
有時候我要的不是安慰，只是靜靜的陪伴；
有時候我要的只是一個人靜一下......
我知道你只是想讓我好過一些，你只是關心我....
我知道...我都知道....

只是你的關心不適合我，
你太過細致的關懷，太過沉重，
所以我才會想逃...
暫時離開你關切的眼神，
那個會讓我覺得我很可憐的眼神...

我不是不在乎你，我也沒有要忽略你，
只是我們的想法和觀念有些不同....
不想拒絕你的好，
所以才不說一聲的，悄悄逃離....

你能了解嗎？
我不是要拋棄誰，我也沒有忽略誰....
我只是有點無力....
你知道有多少次我在背對著你的時候，
靜靜的在擦拭爬滿我臉頰的淚呢？

你有你的感覺，
忽略了你的想法，
是我不好...
只是原諒我，
無法分出太多的精神來關心你...
自顧不暇的我，
只會一再辜負你的好...

一直用這個理由來當借口，
很遜，很爛吧？
可以的話，
我才不想要有這樣的機會，
說這個連我自己都不相信的借口...

GOODBYE

i guess today is the last day....
avthg was done...
really done....
it reach the end....
she was burnt....instaed of bury....
according to my bro,taday she was burnt n her bone wil b take on tmr....
i duno how the procedure is....
juz my bro told me abt tis ony....
juz tis....
she knew my avthg...but i din even know how old she r....
at last...she really can rest in peace....
now wats is left is juz memories n ashes....
i'll miz u....
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a lot thg happened lastly...
i can hardly focus anythig....well...juz u cant c it....

avthg was finish....
her time juz go to the end...
she have done her duties,
n go to a place full of happiness...
but however,
i'll miss u too....

THaNk You~~mY FRenzZs....

nvr thk of i'll so "hardworking".....
im such a lazy fellow...would write so many thg....
kinda amazing....

thanks...thanks 4 avthg u all hav done for me....
thanks 4 care abt me....
thanks 4 my frens tat comfort me....
thanks 4 my frens tat going to thr to pay her the last visit 4 me....
thanks 4 zy who always acc me....
thanks a lot...really thanks a lot....
the thanks cant express how grateful im towards wat u all hav done to me....
but i duno wat to do show how grateful im....
i really very appreciate wat u all hav done to me....
really thanks....
i really do appreciate tat....

i know u guys care abt me...
n i knew all the thgs u all trying to tel me...
but know doesn't mean can accept it immediately...
give me some time....
now the only thg i hope is
hope she can rest in peace...
b happy always....
no more suffering....

i was injured,
the wound was bleeding...
n u guys saw me...
come n help me to heal my wound,
by applying medicine on it.
i know u all do all tis for me juz to hope i can get well soon...
but u all din realized,
the moment the medicine contact v my wound,
it cause a great pain to me....